Chaos, Panic Disorder . . .

Thanks to everyone who has given me their condolences (on LJ where no one on IJ/Dreamwidth would know). I'd thank everyone personally but you know who you are >hugs you all< At least he didn't suffer and went quickly, I guess that's all we can ask. However, past the grieving, half my monthly income was taking care of my stepdad so that means I now make half of what I did. And things were tight before they're very, VERY tight now. I had to skip PortCon and I have my room for Otakon up for grabs (I posted in the Otakon community on LJ).

Other than that, not much. Work still sucks, mum's going to have to go to work and hopefully make as much as I am now to help with bills/food/ect. I had on Friday resolved exactly what to do with half the money I make (meaning the Friday before my stepdad passed away) and things were feeling good and looking up (I should have known something would happen. Whenever things start feeling good and looking up, something bad happens) and I was all prepared for a three year plan to save money and by 2013 go back to Otakon in style. Now . . . I have no idea if I'll be doing more than just paying bills and never get a chance to go back down. PortCon, yeah, that's cheap and close, but it's not the same.

So yeah . . . just keep praying (or whatever you want to do, just no hexes, please) not only that I can get enough money to keep this house going but also for everyone here who's still grieving.

Rest in peace, Fuzzy, you will be missed.